smile.

 i was always told that laughter makes you healthier and that it is contagious.  i was always told to smile too; life could always be worse so appreciate what you have.  i used to be known to some of my friends (like in middle school) as smiley, because i always smiled, i always drew smiley faces.  smiling makes you happy, it puts you and others in a better mood.  but now, a small smile means so much more.  when i see little Zoey give me a huge smile, i can't help but smile.  her smiles make my heart melt, my eyes get teary, and my happiness grow by an uncountable amount.  she just has recently started smiling because she is playing or in a good mood (not just gas) and it is my new life goal to keep a smile on her face.  i don't ever want to see her frown, because i know how happy it makes me to see her smile.  

her baby smile and her little giggles are the best thing since sliced bread, and i don't know how anyone could not melt when they see them.  i never knew such a small little smile could make me feel the way hers does. :)

Zoey, my dear, i can't promise to keep a smile on your face, because eventually we will fuss and argue, i will have to punish you for being bad, i will have to say no to something you want, and you will be angry with me.  but for now, i will do everything i can to keep you smiling because i don't want you to be sad.  just keep smiling and giggling my precious little munchkin!

it's all new.

 hello everyone.  i am not a new blogger, but this is my first blog since being a momma.  in march i found out i was pregnant (completely unexpected) and i was already almost 5 months.  to say that i was kind of freaking out would be an understatement.  the second doctor appointment i found out i had an extremely short cervix, and could potentially go into labor at any moment, and was put into the hospital immediately to stay for 5 days.  i was then put on bed-rest, and had to stay that way for the rest of my pregnancy.  because of a heart condition i have had since birth, i was watched even closer.  but good news, the pregnancy went well, and i was induced on July 15th.  at 11:30pm that monday, my boyfriend, Tim, and i welcomed our wonderful baby girl, Zoey Michelle.  she was beautiful (still is) and perfectly healthy.  you could not imagine my relief.  since that little ball of joy made her appearance, my life has been one huge change.  we moved back to my hometown from Cary so that we could be closer to family and so that we could have free daycare ;), which is wayyy too expensive if i might add.  i have been working from home full time since she was 6weeks old, and tomorrow is my last day at the firm because they could not be flexible when it came to travel expectations.  but to be honest, i don't think i would change one thing.  we have a wonderful baby girl who makes me smile every time i look at her and we are close to family who cannot stay away from her!  life will for sure be different moving forward, and things will be tough, but knowing that i have a family who cares and a daughter who smiles no matter what and a boyfriend who fills my heart with love, i don't think life will be that bad/hard.  

so that is a little background about me.  i will be using this blog to talk about some of the things i have experienced since my wonderful daughter, and somethings that i now consider differently because of her.  this is all about seeing life through a new set of eyes.  i will try not to make this too much of a momma blog, but i will be talking about her and momma issues quite frequently! hope you all enjoy!