Life Flashes Before Your Eyes

Hey guys! Hope all is well with everyone. It has been a little while since I wrote on here, and there are a few things that have happened since the third - that I would like to speak about.


This will probably be a wee bit depressing when compared to my other blogs but unfortunately it has been on my mind the past few days/week. Recently my grandma's boyfriend was put into a nursing home, which I knew was coming but is still hard to deal with. Since I was little, he has been there with my grandma and was always willing to help. It's hard to think that his health may not be able to battle his illnesses any more. I think my grandma would like to pretend it isn't hard on her, but I am sure it is. Speaking of my grandma (better known as Nanny), she is a two- time lung cancer survivor who has trouble walking, and she cut her leg pretty bad yesterday. Fortunately my mom was able to go and get her and take her to the ER, she only needed six stitches. My nanny means the world to me, and I only want her to be okay, and to live forever, and sometimes I just feel like "forever" may be dwindling down. Death is a scary thing amongst us mortals (I  have been reading a lot of supernatural books) but it is definite. Death is the only sure thing in this life, and I do believe that is why it is so scary - there is nothing you can do to prevent it, there is nothing you can do that would ensure you have a longer life, it is just going to happen - and it can at any moment.


I was shown this reality at birth, being born a "blue baby" and almost dying. Fortunately, the doctors were able to preform open heart surgery and prevent my death (at that moment), but I know that it could happen at any time and to people who haven't been able to fully live their life. Both my nanny and her boyfriend have lived a long life, but some of the people who leave this earth haven't. I am sure you are wondering why I am being so reflective right now and it is because I almost witnessed this first hand a couple of days ago. My best friend in elementary and middle school was involved in a really bad wreck two days ago, her brother and his girlfriend were there too - all of them being 21 or under. Even though we have moved apart the past few years, the thought of her being seriously injured (or more than she is) or even death is a horrible feeling. Unfortunately, it could have happened - very easily. I am grateful that she is only in ICU and will be able to heal, it is still a heart-wrenching feeling.


Okay that is enough of depressing things. Pretty much I just want to say to live your life the way you want it. Make sure that you are making yourself happy. Don't live life like you are going to die tomorrow, but live it as if you would want to - with a smile on your face. :) Have a great day! :)