My blog's name is ever-so-fitting for this blog entry. I seem to be just searching...keep on searching I tell myself daily. The life after post-graduation is starting to get to me. I really want a job using my degree, and it is a whole lot harder to make that happen then I thought. The funny thing is I have the grades, the experience, the flexibility...I just don't know what I am missing. I didn't slack off in school and my resume shows that, yeah the job search is kicking my ass. It is very disheartening, I am not going to lie. Now I see why some people chose to go to graduate school/law school instead of going out into the job market. For one of the first times in my life I am wishing I had tons of money so I could travel or do something fun in this down time before I start a career. But instead I am back at East Coast Wings (granted, I am thankful they gave me my job back so I could save up money) waiting on chauvinistic men and rude ass women - I am so thankful for our sweet customers though! I forgot how hard it was to plaster a smile on your face and be nice to people. I just need to find something I enjoy doing. I need a job that I will want to go to, one where I don't hate that I have to be there in an hour, or one where I am not counting down the days until my next day off. I want to be happy with my profession, and that takes a lot of searching. A lot.
And then I run into a different predicament. Location. I want to be out of the South for specific reasons - the fact I am liberal, these people stare at my black nails like I am the devil, I am not religious, and the fact my profession is more prevalent else where. But leaving my home means I won't get to see family and I will be somewhat by myself in a new place. I think for most people being alone would scare them, but I am ready. I feel like it will be a good learning experience for me. I am in the period of my life where I am trying to find myself, and hell, how much better of a time to find yourself then when you are alone in an unfamiliar place. I will miss my family ten fold, which they don't seem to understand. I have grown closer to my mom and my brother in the past 4 or 5 years then I ever thought was possible. But if changing my location will get me a profession that I love, is it worth it? I think so. I think the location gives the profession perks to be honest. Granted I wouldn't mind a place in like Greensboro or Raleigh doing research, which is still some distance from my family. But ultimately, I think a completely new change in landscape would be fun, different, a learning experience, a change for me to grow and change.
Until I completely decide, I am going to keep searching. Keep searching for the answers, the solution to my predicament, the right decision. Any feedback would be lovely! :)
~The Girl Who Keeps Searching
And then I run into a different predicament. Location. I want to be out of the South for specific reasons - the fact I am liberal, these people stare at my black nails like I am the devil, I am not religious, and the fact my profession is more prevalent else where. But leaving my home means I won't get to see family and I will be somewhat by myself in a new place. I think for most people being alone would scare them, but I am ready. I feel like it will be a good learning experience for me. I am in the period of my life where I am trying to find myself, and hell, how much better of a time to find yourself then when you are alone in an unfamiliar place. I will miss my family ten fold, which they don't seem to understand. I have grown closer to my mom and my brother in the past 4 or 5 years then I ever thought was possible. But if changing my location will get me a profession that I love, is it worth it? I think so. I think the location gives the profession perks to be honest. Granted I wouldn't mind a place in like Greensboro or Raleigh doing research, which is still some distance from my family. But ultimately, I think a completely new change in landscape would be fun, different, a learning experience, a change for me to grow and change.
Until I completely decide, I am going to keep searching. Keep searching for the answers, the solution to my predicament, the right decision. Any feedback would be lovely! :)
~The Girl Who Keeps Searching
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